Across the Boundaries

I dance so many different realities in the course of an hour

I dance heaviness
I dance shaking lose
I dance joy
Sensuality
Power
Rage
Boundary
Surrender
Release
Letting go
Taking flight
Opening, opening, opening
To all these aspects rising and moving in me

I am all of these
And none of them

Friending them is a sweet thing to do

Me as mighty warrior
As wild lover
As raging rebel
As tender child
As crazy fool
As soaring eagle
As dancing soul

Ai!

Blessings to all that is for this Life

Cheerful Knowing

I can dance it all

MK MM Joburg3

 

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Something is Changing in me, Is Changed

There is a different confidence in my showing up in the world
A quiet cheerful sense of confidence

It could be attributed to years of experience,
“Now I know what I Know, what I Do”
But No
That is not it

More important,
Much more important
is a different quality of Presence in this moment

There is a fear that has dissipated, disappeared…
A fear of being unable to respond well to what life or the situation might throw me,
A fear that I don’t really know everything I am meant to know

D-i-s-s-o-l-v-i-n-g

A fear that has kept me mostly slightly dis-con-nec-ted
from each moment

Is Dissipating, as I am learning to Trust this Moment
As I am learning to Trust my Self
Learning to Trust my ability to move, to flow, to dance
with Life and what she brings
In this moment…
and the next…
and the next…

And so I can show up more fully to Whatever the Moment brings

I don’t have to try to always be one step ahead, 
and therefore never really Here

Its inverse is – “I can be right Here.
I don’t need to try to be anywhere else.”

And what a relief that is

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Whence does it come from, this Trust?
This quiet cheerful confidence 🙂

For me, the Dance has been the key

The Dancer knows

After hundreds of hours of dancing
Of experiencing moments – infinitesimal perhaps – but real nonetheless
where I touch deep alignment:
Body, heart, mind, soul
Together
Surrendering
Into Life

Into a place of being fully Awake – Alive
With All That Is
Where I am both Nothing and Everything

Touching Knowing
Deep knowing –
That I can Trust
Me and this Moment –
Me in this Moment

I can trust the instrument of life that I am becoming;
that I already am,
Perhaps because I am experiencing
that I am Life itself

Life dancing herself

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In the dance
I touch
A place from which anything can rise….

What a delight!

Dancing from this place
Dancing…

Self as Source
Self as Light
Self as Darkness

Dissolution
Cheerful knowing

I can dance

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Dancing Soul – Day 4

Today I noticed how long it takes me to fully enter the dance. Mind stays with me for a while – quite a while. Censoring, judging, the music, the movement, continues to ponder the themes of the day. Busy busy mind

And then suddenly suddenly suddenly something shifts – the music, the movement, the soul of the moment moves into the foreground, becomes it all. Suddenly I find myself being surprised at myself, what is moving through me, suddenly I notice that I am motion, I am sweat, I am breath, I am dance. I am lost in the moment – and it expands and becomes so big, so bountiful, so explosive, or perhaps later in the movement when it moves towards stillness – so expansively still.

It is ALL Prayer. It is prayer. It is Love of Life. It is Love. Simply that. Love. And in that is Joy. Immense Joy.

Today I arrived at the home of a friend. Full of my bubbly joy, from these days of movement. I shared, I bubbled. In the course of our time together our conversation moved to less happy things. An old story of torture and pain in our troubled country. A new story of arrests. And my bubbles took on the pain and became immense sorrow. Tears came. Sadness filled me. My friend apologized. But I simply said ‘it is all good.’ And it is.

What the dance is doing is enabling Flow. I can flow from joy to grief in an instant. And it is Beautiful and True. And – here is what is new – I am not getting stuck in either. I can probably move equally fast to anger, fiereceness, even fear. The emotions are not good or bad – they are. Just like there is slow and fast and sombre and vibrant music. And I am learning to flow through it all.

Each day I have come to the dance with an issue, or concern. Each time I have danced it into oblivion. Not that I ignore it, but I land at the end with a deeper, richer, wider perspective. My body and soul can hold it all – with such spaciousness. What was a mountain literally turns into a molehill in the dance.

I realize we don’t all need to dance – but there is something here. Something here about flow, perspective, surrender….

And this is only day 4!