Something is Changing in me, Is Changed

There is a different confidence in my showing up in the world
A quiet cheerful sense of confidence

It could be attributed to years of experience,
“Now I know what I Know, what I Do”
But No
That is not it

More important,
Much more important
is a different quality of Presence in this moment

There is a fear that has dissipated, disappeared…
A fear of being unable to respond well to what life or the situation might throw me,
A fear that I don’t really know everything I am meant to know

D-i-s-s-o-l-v-i-n-g

A fear that has kept me mostly slightly dis-con-nec-ted
from each moment

Is Dissipating, as I am learning to Trust this Moment
As I am learning to Trust my Self
Learning to Trust my ability to move, to flow, to dance
with Life and what she brings
In this moment…
and the next…
and the next…

And so I can show up more fully to Whatever the Moment brings

I don’t have to try to always be one step ahead, 
and therefore never really Here

Its inverse is – “I can be right Here.
I don’t need to try to be anywhere else.”

And what a relief that is

********************* aaaahhhh

Whence does it come from, this Trust?
This quiet cheerful confidence 🙂

For me, the Dance has been the key

The Dancer knows

After hundreds of hours of dancing
Of experiencing moments – infinitesimal perhaps – but real nonetheless
where I touch deep alignment:
Body, heart, mind, soul
Together
Surrendering
Into Life

Into a place of being fully Awake – Alive
With All That Is
Where I am both Nothing and Everything

Touching Knowing –
Deep knowing –
That I can Trust
Me and this Moment –
Me in this Moment

I can trust the instrument of life that I am becoming;
that I already am,
Perhaps because I am experiencing
that I am Life itself

Life dancing herself

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In the dance
I touch
A place from which anything can rise….

What a delight!

Dancing from this place
Dancing…

Self as Source
Self as Light
Self as Darkness

Dissolution
Cheerful knowing

I can dance